Hello. It’s been a long time.
For the last five years I’ve been in a slow time state between bliss and panic. The world ended for a moment. And then expanded when I had two daughters. I was terrified of losing myself. But I haven’t.
At the end of last year my family and (heavily pregnant) me moved from New Zealand to the United Kingdom. It was a process that almost broke us. The hard work has paid off and I’m in a honeymoon phase with the UK.
Truly.
I suppose if you’re wondering why we moved…something to do with an ancestral pull and well… giving my music career a good go. I think I have another decade in me before I might change course. Or go back to University to collect my piece of paper. Who knows.
My first three albums feel like a trilogy and this one feels like… a new moment in more ways than one. There’s a freedom and an ease.
Each record I’ve made I say this is me in the drivers seat. Watch me - I’m arriving! And each time I’ve been partly wrong. Or maybe that’s just growth. You have to look at it in the rear view mirror.
Anyway — I’m gearing up for an announcement in a few months and I’ll use this space to write directly about the new record, thoughts, feelings, events and respond to you as best as I can.
And back to motherhood — I want to share everything and nothing. I’m a field of extremes. I’m undeniably changed and blessed and lucky and undeserving of such beautiful creatures. My big girl says ‘you’re booootaful Mummy’ and I believe her. And my small one is even more placid than the first.
And to the five years — most of that was Covid but on reflection I think I needed it. Through 2017, at times, I felt pretty burnt out. Wounded. The cellular change. These years have been a gentle nudge off the hamster wheel. Only to confirm I really really love performing and traveling and meeting new people. There’s a rhythm to it that I need. It allows me to feel useful.
I’ll leave it here and think of some more things to say next time.
NR x
Ah the trickeries of life . Hope the journey continues to enable you to enthrall us with your beautiful music and story telling.
What a beautiful surprise to receive your booootaful picture, one o’ lock in the morning in Auckland!
All the best, Kuro